I felt like I was cheated and it hurts to the deepest part of my being. It’s something that I could not escape. But I need to be strong and ask the Lord to give me the strength that I need every step of the way. I don’t know why is this happening to me? Why do I need to suffer like this? Somehow… something in my future God will carry me through.
It’s more than a year now and it is still continuing to strike me straight to the heart. Why do I love thee that much? Why not leave and become what others can do? Why me Lord? Why? Feelings….